Today is a day of manifestation and reflection! I've been housesitting/petsitting this time of the year for the past 3~ years for the same family. Sitting at this house is the highlight of my summer because it brings me back to reflect on the things that have stayed the same or the things that have changed.
SO many things have change..
Something about this year seems final. I am letting go of the old versions of me that I can no longer bring to the next phase of my life. I am welcoming the person I want to become.
I want to bring in humility, I want to understand and allow myself to "look dumb." I say this because 'ya girl is going back to school! CLASS OF 2098 - HAHA JK but seriously, the decision to go back to school is HUGE and also SCARY! I'm sorry but I am going to be the teachers pet. I want to be the motherfuckkin valedictorian of my class and I want to get my masters (not sure yet on what BUT BEST BELIEVE IMMA HAVE AN MD).
Despite my various insecurities, lately I've been allowing myself to be myself. I've been showing up as myself in my relationships because I am done trying to be what I THINK people want me to be and I am done anticipate the needs of others. I want to show up for people so bad - and have, silently expecting the same and being let down when I don't feel like they show up in the same way. This doesn't make them bad people but I am learning that I need to VOICE MY EXPECTATIONS.. ergh still challenging but I have a therapist now to help me!!! See, old versions of me are shedding... LOL
Usually when I "manifest" I do it super vaguely, but now I want to get specific. This is what I want:
I want to earn my degree in public health and get a masters in nursing.
I want to graduate summa cum laude BITCH LMAO
I want to get my mom her US citizenship and go our first vacation together
I want to be in the best shape of my life. I need to get this eating right...
STICK TO MY DAMN BUDGET
I want to travel more and with the people I love.. Brazil 2024 Carnival anyone??!
I pray and manifest for abundance in all areas of my life for myself and all the critters of my life and all of you, whoever you are.
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